When you’re sucking metaphorical (and sometimes literal) dick in the corporate world, you can never rest from being completely up someone’s asshole if you want to remain on the non-shit list. You must always act urgent, attentive and interested–basically like a lap dog.
It’s semi-bearable to pretend to be up someone’s asshole initially, because the novelty of being paid regularly gets the better of you, but sustaining it long-term can be rather exhausting and may result in permanent brain damage and/or irreparable psychological trauma. And it can cause quite a bit of confusion about which mask you should wear at any given moment.